So here we are 18 weeks into weight watchers and 13 weeks at the gym. I have FINALLY hit my 20lb mark and actually with my 2lb loss this week i'm now at 21.5lbs. It feels like it has taken forever to get here, but I couldn't be happier and more proud of myself for sticking with it this long!
So yesterday was my bosses birthday. Of course what birthday would be complete without cake, chocolate fudge cake to be exact. So I decided early in the day that I wasn't going to have any cake. I simply wanted a small bite because I knew cheat day was near and to be honest that's all I really needed to satisfy my sweet tooth. So while the cake was being cut I got the same comment twice: oh that's right you're getting ready for your wedding. Yes, i'm getting married in 10 1/2 months, but dang it people I started this journey before a wedding was on the horizon and I would still be doing it even if I wasn't getting married. I'm not trying to lose weight because i'm getting married. I'm not sure why those comments bothered me so much but they did. But the whole point of this rant is to say that I said no to a piece of chocolate cake...... CHOCOLATE CAKE!!! That in itself is a huge victory for me!
Now onto one other comment that was said to me this week that kind of rubbed me the wrong way. A girl at work saw the picture of me in my wedding dress and felt the need to comment in a round about way how bad my arms looked in the dress. Thank you for your awesome comment darling! My arms may look bad but they looked a whole lot worse 18 weeks ago! And believe me, I will look fabulous on my wedding day even if I don't lose another pound! I am hard on myself every single day of my life, but I am working incredibly hard to change that! I am my own biggest critic but am starting finally learn to love myself! I am beautiful and that fact that I am working my ass off makes me feel so much better about myself!!
So anyway, my rant is over for now. Thanks for taking the time to read this again (if you've gotten this far)! Until next time.... stay classy! :)
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Monday, June 10, 2013
Weight loss and wedding dresses
Well I'm doing a fantastic job of keeping up with this blog. Just got home from zumba and had some extra energy so I thought why not grace you all with another blog. (Please contain your excitement)!
So i've been at Weight Watchers for 16 weeks. This past week I lost 3lbs which shocked me because I didn't do zumba all week due to hurting my back. None the less I still managed to lose 3lbs which brings me to 19.5lbs total. I'm so close to 20 I can taste it! Hopefully I'll get my 20lb gold star at the end of this week. So YAY ME!
So after losing my 3lbs I was a happy girl so I wanted to keep that momentum going so what did I do...... bought a wedding dress. We planned on going to just look. I had picked out 5 dresses to try on prior to going. They only had three. One was clearance and no longer available and the other was online only. So I starting looking through the catalog at the store and found a dress that I really liked. The consultant pulled 4 dresses for me (including the one from the catalog) to try on. I put the catalog dress on first.......I fell in love! I humored myself and everyone with me and tried on the 3 others. They were all pretty, but I just kept going back to the first one as did my mom. She would say that's really pretty but I like the first one better. I had no intentions of buying a dress but you really do just know that that's the dress when you have it on........so I SAID YES TO THE DRESS!!!
I know this blog is supposed to be about weight loss so i'll get back to that. The dress fit me perfectly and I mean perfectly no alterations needed. The only thing is I have 10 months until the wedding and i'm planning on continuing to go to weight watchers until I hit my weight goal. I started my weight loss journey before the engagement and before we started planning a wedding. I started doing it for me and for no other reason and that is why i'm going to continue to do it for just that reason. I wasn't going to be one of those girls that bought a dress a size smaller and prayed that i fit into it. I bought a dress that fits me perfectly and if I have to have it taken in then that's a great thing to me! If I don't lose another pound before my wedding day that's just fine with me too.
I've not been this happy with my life in a really long time. I thank God every day for my blessings. I may not have everything I want but I sure do have everything that I need!!!
So i've been at Weight Watchers for 16 weeks. This past week I lost 3lbs which shocked me because I didn't do zumba all week due to hurting my back. None the less I still managed to lose 3lbs which brings me to 19.5lbs total. I'm so close to 20 I can taste it! Hopefully I'll get my 20lb gold star at the end of this week. So YAY ME!
So after losing my 3lbs I was a happy girl so I wanted to keep that momentum going so what did I do...... bought a wedding dress. We planned on going to just look. I had picked out 5 dresses to try on prior to going. They only had three. One was clearance and no longer available and the other was online only. So I starting looking through the catalog at the store and found a dress that I really liked. The consultant pulled 4 dresses for me (including the one from the catalog) to try on. I put the catalog dress on first.......I fell in love! I humored myself and everyone with me and tried on the 3 others. They were all pretty, but I just kept going back to the first one as did my mom. She would say that's really pretty but I like the first one better. I had no intentions of buying a dress but you really do just know that that's the dress when you have it on........so I SAID YES TO THE DRESS!!!
I know this blog is supposed to be about weight loss so i'll get back to that. The dress fit me perfectly and I mean perfectly no alterations needed. The only thing is I have 10 months until the wedding and i'm planning on continuing to go to weight watchers until I hit my weight goal. I started my weight loss journey before the engagement and before we started planning a wedding. I started doing it for me and for no other reason and that is why i'm going to continue to do it for just that reason. I wasn't going to be one of those girls that bought a dress a size smaller and prayed that i fit into it. I bought a dress that fits me perfectly and if I have to have it taken in then that's a great thing to me! If I don't lose another pound before my wedding day that's just fine with me too.
I've not been this happy with my life in a really long time. I thank God every day for my blessings. I may not have everything I want but I sure do have everything that I need!!!
Monday, May 27, 2013
Weigh in day
So Saturday was weigh-in day. I lost one pound. Losing weight is like a see-saw to me. I feel as though after all the hard work I did last week I should have lost more. Part of me feels disappointed in myself. The other part of me though says you lost a pound.... you didn't gain anything. I desperately try to stay positive and move on and pray to the weight gods that I lose more this week. As I said before, it feels like it is taking FOREVER to get this weight off!!! But I am determined and have already decided that no matter what happens, I WILL stick with this!
On another note...... I decided before starting all of this that I would have a cheat day every week. Without this day I wouldn't be able to stick with the whole program. So Saturday is my cheat day. I weigh in and then for the rest of the day, eat what I want and not count points. When Sunday rolls around I start my week out right. So usually my mom and I go out to breakfast or lunch after we weigh in. This past Saturday was no different. We went out to lunch. We both got sanwiches (ok subs but sandwiches just sounds better). So we're sitting there and this attractive couple walks in. A very skinny attractive woman and what appeared to be her thin, in shape husband or boyfriend. I could hear them as they ordered their drinks both of which got water. So knowing I can hear them from where we were sitting, I see them both appear to glance my way and seem to start whispering. So I sit there wondering are they judging me because of what i'm eating? Are they looking at the fat girl thinking she shouldn't be eating that? Now this is just my mind working overtime, they very well could have not even noticed me nor cared about what I was eating. This got me thinking though. How often do we judge others? These people don't know how hard I work on a daily basis, nor do they know that i've lost 16lbs and this is my "cheat day." How often do you judge someone not knowing a thing about them? I know i've done it, but now I think twice about stuff because I know what i'm going through.
So it's Monday, Memorial Day actually (thank you to all the soldiers)! I had no plans today so I spent several hours cleaning. Hopefully I burned some calories because there was no Zumba this evening. So the work week begins tomorrow and I can start it knowing that i'm one pound less than I was last week. YAY me! :)
On another note...... I decided before starting all of this that I would have a cheat day every week. Without this day I wouldn't be able to stick with the whole program. So Saturday is my cheat day. I weigh in and then for the rest of the day, eat what I want and not count points. When Sunday rolls around I start my week out right. So usually my mom and I go out to breakfast or lunch after we weigh in. This past Saturday was no different. We went out to lunch. We both got sanwiches (ok subs but sandwiches just sounds better). So we're sitting there and this attractive couple walks in. A very skinny attractive woman and what appeared to be her thin, in shape husband or boyfriend. I could hear them as they ordered their drinks both of which got water. So knowing I can hear them from where we were sitting, I see them both appear to glance my way and seem to start whispering. So I sit there wondering are they judging me because of what i'm eating? Are they looking at the fat girl thinking she shouldn't be eating that? Now this is just my mind working overtime, they very well could have not even noticed me nor cared about what I was eating. This got me thinking though. How often do we judge others? These people don't know how hard I work on a daily basis, nor do they know that i've lost 16lbs and this is my "cheat day." How often do you judge someone not knowing a thing about them? I know i've done it, but now I think twice about stuff because I know what i'm going through.
So it's Monday, Memorial Day actually (thank you to all the soldiers)! I had no plans today so I spent several hours cleaning. Hopefully I burned some calories because there was no Zumba this evening. So the work week begins tomorrow and I can start it knowing that i'm one pound less than I was last week. YAY me! :)
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
When the journey began
So i've decided to start this blog to chronicle my weight loss or lack there of depending on the week. I'm doing this for me so that I can look back and see how I struggled week to week, to see my success, and to just remember this journey.
I'm 30 years old and have struggled with my weight all my life. I have been a yo yo dieter for as long as I can remember. I've watched my weight go up, down, and back up again. I joined weight watchers during my freshman year of college and lost close to 70lbs. So I know it works. Yet even after making this major accomplishment, I put it all back on and then some.
I met the love of my life in 2009. Like all relationships, I became comfortable and put weight on. My wonderful boyfriend loves me for me and I know this. I decided just about 14 weeks ago that I was tired of being fat and I was ready to change that. So I joined weight watchers again. The weight loss has been extremely slow. But I keep telling myself that it didn't come on overnight and it's certainly not going to come off overnight. So after almost 14 weeks (14 weeks will be Saturday) I have lost 15lbs.
About 9 weeks ago I joined the gym and found something else that I have come to love..... Zumba. I have met some wonderful people and my instructors are awesome! I have continued to stay motivated to go to zumba at least 3 times a week and I sometimes go up to 5 times a week. Weight loss isn't easy. If you've never been here then you have no idea what it's like to struggle day to day.
My cousin wrote a blog about her daughter and how she didn't want her to grow up being known as the "fat kid." I too grew up with that label and have carried it with me as i've gotten older. So many people say you are so pretty or you're beautiful. That's nice and all but you know they're thinking you'd be prettier if you were thinner.
I have had low self esteem all my life. I have felt bad about myself all my life. I really want to change that and am slowly trying to work on my confidence. Mike makes me feel beautiful every day yet at the end of the day I look in the mirror and still hate what I see.
I am going to bed satisfied that I burned 1,384 calories at the gym this evening. I weigh in on Saturday morning and am hoping that the scale reflects all the hard work i've put in this week because it gets tough when you get on the scale and it's not the number you want. But for now, i'm proud of me for sticking with this and am determined to stick with it. If you've read this far, thank you. Until next time!
I'm 30 years old and have struggled with my weight all my life. I have been a yo yo dieter for as long as I can remember. I've watched my weight go up, down, and back up again. I joined weight watchers during my freshman year of college and lost close to 70lbs. So I know it works. Yet even after making this major accomplishment, I put it all back on and then some.
I met the love of my life in 2009. Like all relationships, I became comfortable and put weight on. My wonderful boyfriend loves me for me and I know this. I decided just about 14 weeks ago that I was tired of being fat and I was ready to change that. So I joined weight watchers again. The weight loss has been extremely slow. But I keep telling myself that it didn't come on overnight and it's certainly not going to come off overnight. So after almost 14 weeks (14 weeks will be Saturday) I have lost 15lbs.
About 9 weeks ago I joined the gym and found something else that I have come to love..... Zumba. I have met some wonderful people and my instructors are awesome! I have continued to stay motivated to go to zumba at least 3 times a week and I sometimes go up to 5 times a week. Weight loss isn't easy. If you've never been here then you have no idea what it's like to struggle day to day.
My cousin wrote a blog about her daughter and how she didn't want her to grow up being known as the "fat kid." I too grew up with that label and have carried it with me as i've gotten older. So many people say you are so pretty or you're beautiful. That's nice and all but you know they're thinking you'd be prettier if you were thinner.
I have had low self esteem all my life. I have felt bad about myself all my life. I really want to change that and am slowly trying to work on my confidence. Mike makes me feel beautiful every day yet at the end of the day I look in the mirror and still hate what I see.
I am going to bed satisfied that I burned 1,384 calories at the gym this evening. I weigh in on Saturday morning and am hoping that the scale reflects all the hard work i've put in this week because it gets tough when you get on the scale and it's not the number you want. But for now, i'm proud of me for sticking with this and am determined to stick with it. If you've read this far, thank you. Until next time!
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